9.09.2008

All by Myself

"I can do it all by myself."

As the mom of a preschooler these are words (or some variation of) that I hear over and over. Princess Pigtails is becoming more and more independent with each passing day. She is learning quickly and gaining much confidence with each new experience. As her mama, I know that she still needs me. I know that she can't do everything alone. And yet, I know for her to learn and grow, I need to set aside my perfectionist tendencies. Save the scolding and step aside and allow her the opportunity to try. I suppose through those experiences she will learn that there are times she needs me. What she can do and can not do on her own is so obvious to me. To her, it is not.

How much am I as an adult like an over confident three year old? I insist that "I can do it all by myself". I stubbornly forge ahead and fail to turn to God, to rely on Him and seek His ways. Thankfully, I have a Father that is full of mercy and grace. He is there waiting on me with out a scolding or an "I told you so".

"But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved." Ephesians 2:4 & 5 (emphasis mine)


1 comment:

Angie said...

I needed this. Thanks! With the birth of my second child, asking for help has not been even an option for me anymore. It is something I HATE to do (for some reason, I see it as a sign of weekness on my part). I got hit with strep throat and a sinus infection over the weekend and just could not take care of the kiddos by myself. It was past that "working through the tired and pain" part. I called my mom at 6 a.m. and am so thankful she was able to take the boys so I could go to the doctor--Marty was in IC with his beloved Hawkeyes (won't even get into that...). I ask God for a lot of things, but I find it's hard for me to REALLY give my worries and anxiety to him. I know we are to cast our cares onto him, but I tend to cast and reel em back in. Having this second baby has taught me more and more to let go. I CAN'T keep it all together by myself, and more importantly, God doesn't expect me to. I've always known this in my theological mind, but never really been able to do it. Baby number two, along with many, many other great lessons, has taught me this. Thanks for the reminder. I am learning to put my concerns completely on Him... They are in much more capable hands there!